connection.

Human connection is so important to me. When I've felt so disconnected from myself and the world for so long, it's refreshing and amazing to finally feel connected to someone. I connected with someone tonight. I was vulnerable, said what I felt, what my fears were, what I wanted. And this person...did not scream, did not run away, did not yell at me. Instead, this person listened to me, comforted me, and believed in me. There was a moment during all of this when I thought to myself, "why? am I actually deserving of this? how is he not repulsed by me?" I wanted to pull away, but I just...let go. I let myself feel, and connect. I feel I have a bond with this person, a bond I have never felt before. One of friendship, and closeness....and challenges. My eyes have been opened.