I don't know anything anymore, except my eating disorder.
I don't know how to eat, I don't remember. Every time I sit down to eat, I dissociate.
What do you do when you want to give your ED, when you know it's bad for you and it's not helping, but at the same time...you want it...you want your ED? What are you supposed to do? What do I need?
Flashbacks are creeping back in and I HATE it.
I guess my question is why would you want your eating disorder, or an eating disorder for that matter.
ReplyDeleteThey are hell (you are in hell) they make you depressed (you are depressed) they make you hate yourself (you hate yourself) they take over your life (all that you have is your eating disorder now) it kills people (it is killing you) it destroys all relationships (you are isolated)
I could go on.
So far than thinking "I need this" start thinking of why you DO NOT need it.
You have to just fight.
Might sound simple, but it is that.
I offered the advice of eating with or around others to make it easier.
Plan to go to a friends or see family, at dinner, so you have that support.
Eat lunch with a co-worked.
Little things that make this easier xxxx