My dietitian appointment is set up for January 28. Which is about 3 weeks away. I am getting anxious about it, but also excited...ready to get rid of ED totally. I have already decided that I do not want to know my weight, not at all. I don't want to know if I have to gain weight either. I am going to tell my dietitian this and I know she will respect it. I don't weigh myself, haven't in a long time. I have found that when I DO weigh myself, my obsession to lose weight multiplies by 1000. It is just better for me not to know my weight. I don't even WANT to know it. Because I know whatever number it is...I won't be happy.
I think I am going to start back with trauma work in therapy this week. There are a lot of things about it that are bothering me, and I just need to process it.
There really isn't much else going on. Nothing exciting anyway. Just same old work schedule.
Maybe something exciting will happen soon.
maybe something exciting will happen soon :) lol if onlyyyy. i'm really debating about returning to therapy/group, etc...i just don't know if i need it or want it anymore.
ReplyDeletebut anyway, im glad you made the appt. i couldnt agree more about not knowing your weight. since i destroyed my scales, it has been SO much easier to recover. also, letting go of calorie counting is the most freeing thing in the world.
i hope you're ok :) i return to school soon and life will definitely feel a lot different...maybe i'll return to the blogging/internet world.
love you girl <3 keep working hard and being strong.
Love you xxxxx
ReplyDeleteExcellent idea not to weigh.
ReplyDelete~Missy